Boom Boom Pow

How's this for song? I love it- even if it makes no sense to me. It makes me want to dance and do kickboxing at the same time! Here's Boom Boom Pow by Black Eyed Peas:

Gotta get-get, gotta get-get
Gotta get-get, gotta g-g-g-get-get-get, get-get
Boom boom boom, gotta get-get
Boom boom boom, gotta get-get
Boom boom boom, gotta get-get
Boom boom boom, gotta get-get
Boom boom boom, now
Boom boom boom, now
Boom boom pow
Boom boom...

...eh nevermind, here's a link the video- the CLEAN version, of course, where shit is s***. Nice.

I try not to worry 'bout her

Davin and I had a meeting at the adoption agency yesterday to update our home study. On the drive home we talked about Kiya. It's seems like it's gotten harder for me while it's gotten easier for Davin. I told him this, and I told me about this song. He said whenever he hears it, he cries a little. It reminds him of Kiya. I don't really listen to country music, so I had never heard it- I went online to find it when I got home. It's doesn't fit in the literal sense, but it does speak true to a lot of our feelings. So I thought I'd share it. Here's the lyrics to Sissy's Song, by Alan Jackson:

...

Loved ones she left behind
Just trying to survive
And understand the why
Feeling so lost inside
Anger shot straight at God
Then asking for His love
Empty with disbelief
Just hoping that maybe

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me

It's hard to say goodbye
Her picture in my mind
Will always be of times I'll cherish
And I won't cry 'cause

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me
Don't worry 'bout me
Don`t worry 'bout me
...
Link to the song on you tube

Happy Easter

Davin and I are heading up to the North Shore tomorrow for a couple nights. I am hoping a few books I ordered from Amazon arrive in the mail today- I very much look forward to the relaxation of the Lake Superior...

Wishing you and your loved ones a happy and blessed Easter weekend!

Spring IS here

Tears and Hope

Kiya is two weeks old today. I miss her. I love her. Of course, being me, I called her mom without thinking for more than two seconds about it. I found out her plan for when she graduates from treatment in two weeks. She'll live in a recovery house in St. Cloud for at least 60 days, which she said she is oddly (her words) excited about- yay! She has been getting back in touch with good friends she had before using drugs. She said there are a few that will be very good for her to be around, and they are happy to "have her back". Yay! Like, I said before, meth is an ugly drug, but if she can surround herself with a good support system, and can stay in the recovery home as long as possible...well, I have hope. I live on hope these days- but this is a stronger hope. I am choosing to believe it WILL happen for her. That she will turn her life around, and Kiya will live a happy and healthy life with her.

I cry because I miss Kiya, but I feel hope. Hope is good. :)