Say Hey by Michael Franti

Doesn't this just make you wanna get up and DANCE??? ...and to the question I know you're gonna ask- this singer was adopted as an infant by a Finnish couple. :D

A walking affirmation

I realized last night that these were all a part of my outfit...

All I need is "Believe" tattooed on my arm. :D

P.S. I wear both bracelets almost every day. The silver one says, "believe in yourself", "be brave", "be kind", "be happy", and "be well". Sometimes when I'm feeling frustrated or crabby I'll look down to see what it's telling me. :)

Big sisters can be bullies

Leanne's been all over my business to post another blog entry. So here it is.

...that's all. (yeah, not a whole lot to blog about at the moment.)

My playlist

I spent some of this afternoon putting together a playlist for the first time. I was trying to distract my mind from my feelings- it worked well for awhile. Basically, all the songs are ones that I like (obviously)- some new, some older. I kept out the country songs that I like- the ones that have meaning to me. Only for the sole reason that I dislike country music in general, and I felt these songs- even with the good memories- kind of ruined the vibe of the list... I tend to like soundtracks with lesser-known artists. I could have put almost the entire soundtracks from Juno and P.S. I Love You on here, but I stuck with a couple of my favorite from each. Enjoy.

P.S. If I have to pick a favorite from this list it would be track 5: Anyone Else But You, sung by Michael Cera and Ellen Page from Juno.

ETA: You and Me by Plain White T's is my phone ring tone, so now when I have my playlist playing I grab for my phone when it comes on. For dumb.

Seriously?!

I've been a girl my entire life, but I still don't understand the point of these crazy things they call "hormones". They make a perfectly sane girl (hey, some may argue that I am indeed sane) turn all nutso!!! Grrrr- don't come too close, I might bite you! Just kidding, I love you- you're an angel. In fact, I can't imagine my life without you- -SOB-, what?! You think I'm fat?! Don't look at me like that! ---SIGH--- I love you- and you- and you...

The new Laura?

I'm working on being positive. I met a couple virtual friends in real life over the weekend. (It was awesome to meet you both, Elizabeth and Amy!). Among other things, a couple things that came up in conversation were people and their energy, and facebook. (Not necessarily together). As we talked I realized I sometimes often like to antagonize people who are generally negative. One example: I had a friend on facebook from high school. We weren't friends back then, but we got in touch through facebook. At first it was fun, but over time I got sick of her constant negativity. She is the prime example of an attention-seeker. And an energy vampire. Finally, I had enough and I started to call her out on her dramatic status updates. She would say, "I have the worst job ever- shoot me now!" I'd say, "Then quit. Find a new job". She would say, "Holy Hell! Everyone in this world SUCKS". And I'd say, "Really? Everyone? Do you really think that?" And on and on...but what kind of person does that make me? Not only was it annoying and unnecessary, but I was drawing in her bad energy. So, on Monday, I finally deleted her as a friend, along with a couple others that seem to suck my energy. It's not that I don't like these people- I actually do- but I don't need their bad energy right now. I need to stay positive to keep going in my life right now. Things have been rough, and it's best for me to surround myself with good energy, and let the bad go. And I have to say, it's already made a huge difference! Of course, I'm Miss Sarcastic, and that often comes across as negative. I'm working on that- it'll probably take awhile because I've been like that FOREVER, and besides, it's not always bad. I have to sort out what sarcasm is okay because it really is part of my personality, and what has got to go.

Final thought for now: I will never be a constant Miss Positive. I acknowledge that I will always have bad days- even if I weren't prone to depression, I would still have bad days. After all, I am human. And I may even will sometimes vent about it. But, in general, I am choosing to keep my head up with a smile on my face. How does that sound? :)

Laura...

~is thinking she should just do status updates on her blog- kind of like facebook. This way she may blog more often.
~just ate a peanut butter and jam sandwich- they always taste so yummy.
~realized about an hour ago that she had gone all day (until now) without thinking about Kiya. She almost felt guilty, but instead realized she is in fact healing.
~wishes she was going to be at Leanne's garage sale tomorrow to take pictures. Oh, that would be so blog-worthy. And super entertaining.
~instead, she is going to work.
~is going to Arizona for her wedding anniversary at the beginning of June. She is so excited to take a vacation with her husband.
~is grateful that Davin is employed, but, man, has he been working A LOT lately.
~can hear thunder and rain. Rain is good. Clearwater needs it 'cause it's too expensive to water lawns. She's thinking she'll have a brown yard in no time.
~is so sick of talking in the third person. She wonders how many of you are annoyed also?

Happy May Day!!!

It's beautiful and sunny here in central Minnesota- I hope it is wherever you are too!